Voice of experience? Yes!
Ever feel like you can't get a leg up? Keep a penny...just a penny...in the bank? Go a day without feeling underappreciated, way underpaid, unloved, useless and just down right in the dumps? Like NOTHING works in your favor? Not even your own offspring! Ever felt like you’re wearing 400 extra pounds of weight on the inside?
During the last month, we have had our water cut off, the 4 of us have bathed at the Y, dodged several threatening creditor calls, had to take out payday loans, prayed the car would not be repossessed, that the lights would still be on when we got home and that we would have gas to get the kids to school AND us to work the next day. We’ve had to miss church because we have to drive two vehicles and don’t have the money for both tanks! It’s been trying!
Has anyone been confronted - Face To Face - Chin To Chin - Nose To Nose - Eyeball To Eyeball with Satan himself and smelled his stinking breath? I feel like the past few days, maybe even weeks, I can honestly say I feel as though I have!
He has tried his best to put a divide in my family by using our finances, our children, even lack of food in the cupboards and our marriage. He has tried to bring me down by making me feel like a horrible parent and an even worse wife! He has tried to put that seed of doubt in my mind! He has put obstacles in both my husband's and my path to righteousness! He has done his best to throw our temptations so they smack us in the face!
I am woman enough to admit, I questioned God! I asked him: Lord, how could you allow this to happen? Why? How much more do you think I can take? I am trying to keep faith but Oh Lord, Deliver Me and my family!
As I write this, I went on a tangent and checked my “verse of the day” that is delivered to my Google front page when I log in. This is what it read (I PROMISE THIS IS REALLY THE VERSE LISTED FOR TODAY 9/23/08...biblegateway.com):
“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.”- Romans 5:3-4
Okay, Lord...'Nuff Said!!!
